I had spent the past few days decompressing. There’s an invisible gravitational pull towards entropy – randomness, chaos. We all exhaust, and we all grow impatient. It’s not a fault, it’s a default. There’s just a fine line between becoming aware to elevate our consciousness and being subject to fear of judgement by having expectations. I can understand why people get chronically ill and mentally unstable… there’s such anxiety and depression circulating in the consciousness of society. It’s normal, however, not taboo.
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Social conversations are hardly about what we enjoy and like to do. What are dreams and what are our personal dreams and how we’d like to make the world better in our own ways. It’s too much about selling and being sold something, how to get rich, how to get noticed, how to get more, get it faster and how to get it all. We are captured through insatiable attention and begin to lose focus and solidarity. We are not absolute beings therefore we cannot claim to have absolute judgement. Trying to control anything is nothing more than conditioning ourselves out of potentials and possibilities of our natural creative human being.
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What is a peace of mind worth? What is freedom worth? What is a breath of fresh air worth? Worth nothing because it cost nothing. It’s not about worth. It’s not about being deserving. It’s also not about sacrifice. It’s about responsibility and a sense of pride in the laborious and terrifying pursuit of our better selves. It’s about doing our best and acknowledging that everyone is doing their best, no matter what it seems. People get loud and noisy and material and unsympathetic as self-distraction… they’re panicking and pretending like they’re not capable of being hurt. No one knows what they’re talking about. Everyone gets hurt.
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We have our own stories. And we have to tell it in our own ways. Stories are meant to restore faith in humanity not store unhelpful beliefs. The ordinary way is extraordinary. We have everything we are looking for. Cease to expect, control, or chase. Just observe and allow. There’s a great plenty of unique beauty that only we can see and feel moment to moment, if we allow it. If we allow ourselves to fall in love with the great unknown, with possibilities. To be curious, to surrender our inflictions, to have wonder.
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When our intelligence is given free will, it will always execute it and override the natural default toward entropy. That’s why when things make sense, our opinionated perception can shift entirely and instantly to a clearer objective. Free will requires continuous exercising. The way to exercise our free will is in seeking meaning and our personal truths. Honor your rights of innocent inquiry and be proud of your own special internal rhythms and unique melodics. We are responsible for the energy we manifest. Be resolved in that responsibility.
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I love you and hope you will have a peaceful Christmas Eve. ♥