NOTES

crochet scarf by my mom 我媽勾的圍巾 喜歡這淺藍！

My Little Monster / となりの怪物くん 2018 Movie

10/5

Woke up with a buzz in my mind… as if it worked out an answer to something important. It was probably because I went to sleep with renewed insight. Objective study and observation has been helpful. Yesterday, by evening time, I was able to write out an entire blueprint. It flowed intuitively, much less ignorant and resistant… I felt as if I had ownership to it. What a rare and special feeling for someone who feels often a fraud of their own life!

Finding a beginning is even harder than finding a goal. The hardest questions is what is my real reason to even begin? I have always desired purpose. Purpose is for focus. For this little egg, a decade of self work, so I plead to internalize it, a sense of purpose, my very own!

First nothingness, then light, but in distortion, then, over the course I begin to see, with more clarity… and I begin to feel the intelligence, expressed painfully through this self in times of distress, to show me, my desire to embody the gift of creation, to feel it internally, naturally.

it begins in a hope
to nurture courage
until courage becomes faith
until faith becomes conviction
until conviction becomes resolved
in my destiny of freedom and romance…

There is working, and there is living. I need both to fulfill this pretty destiny ❣

Create the space you need! The more space you give yourself, the more you have for your friends and family. The infinite internal space to love, to create and to grow…Love cannot be born from expecting or lusting.

Today is Day 5 of Phase 1 : TRANSITION
Finish Line is on 12。21…. New beginnings….!!

Ps. Happy Birthday!