Planting started last year… the greatest breakthrough in that project was processing out a kind of anxiety trigger. It was coming to an understanding that there will be inevitable and unforeseeable changes in organic life and growth so to not force myself to try and ‘be in control’ but to just observe.
Intuition is gained for the mind which experiments and observes. I was able to wrestle the stressors and negativity and come out with more confidence and objectivity. It comes down to seeing what factors we do control and what we don’t…to feel where the balance of exerting effort and letting go exist.
This was extremely opening for me. It was the feelings of failure that lead me to challenge myself to find resolve, and it was this conviction that lead me to success, which I found in a greater understanding and intuition about organic life. Success is a feeling of resolving failure. Without failure, there would be no opportunity to seek success.
Once we attain this sort of completion(resolving a stressor, a problem, a challenge) in our life assignments, we can begin to cultivate appreciation (external) and nurture gratitude (internal). This is where our internal state and external state become aligned in peacefulness. In peacefulness, state of security and confidence, our purpose begins to take root, and our enthusiasm to create blossoms and becomes stronger, brighter. This is true power.
Alita 
Croco
